phonecall

my girlfriend has a crush on me
because I am not there
(that's not why)
my plants are dying
but it is not her fault
she is trying
they just miss me
she does too

it's lovely to be around babies
she says
she see her friends with their children
they are so happy, amazing, spiritual
to share that

but the stronger feelings are
holy fuck
they are so loud
they move so much
and they want so much
and they need so much
a mixture of strong attraction
and strong repulsion
she says

are you laughing at me
she says
because i was
i hear you typing
should i let you go?

i am typing what you're saying
i say
and then
she says
then i won't say anything at all